Here’s how a typical morning goes:
Where are my keys?
Where is my cell phone?
What day do the library books need to be returned again?
Why can’t I remember…?
The other day my friend Cindy called to ask me the name of the baker who created the one-of-a-kind cake for my wedding not even two years ago. The one shaped like our house with custom rooms for the four children between us.
“Oh shoot, what was his name again?” I said aloud. “B something. Barbar? Barbat? ”
“You have C.R.S.!” Cindy told me. “I’ve got it, too,” she said.
C.R.S. stands for Can’t Remember Sh*T!
Call Julie, I said with resignation, ”She’s got C.R.S. too but she’ll probably remember.” Which she did.
Hmmm. This C.R.S. is a slippery slope. I’m not exactly a ninny and I’ve had some incredible career experiences along the way.
Still, gone are the days when I could spit out phone numbers for neighbors or the birthdays of third cousins. As far as I can remember, my “brain drain” began in my 20’s, once I began to shed all the knowledge acquired from my $100K education at Northwestern University, which today would be more than double that amount. One particularly fond moment – which I still remember because I recently wrote about it – happened when I forgot to drop the garbage in the bin while living in Hoboken, NJ more than 20+ years ago. I was so lost in my thoughts that I boarded the bus into Manhattan with that bag of foul garbage.
This brings up a salient point about life and memory. It occurs to me that I’m still in the “meaty” years. By which I mean, life is thick with the demands of children, teenagers, marriage, SAT’s, college, careers, writing, grocery shopping, laundry, bills, sports and so much else. Often times I feel like a multi-tasking madwoman who juggles it all even as the balls drop around me. It won’t always be this way. The older boys are steps from independence and the twins will grow up. Someday, this sizzle will simmer down and then, perhaps, the sharpness of my memory will return.
I hope I’m right. For now, I’m stocking up on blueberries.
Now why the heck did I put the hot dogs in the cupboard with the dinner plates?
Can any of you relate?